REFLECTIONS

Sitting here reflecting on life and all the possibilities it encompasses. What could it be that holds me back? Me. You see when you live in fear you live with a disability. A terrifying one at that. Life is an adventure… It is suppose to be one. When you are born you are a blank tape. Ready to be filled with what ever emotional, intellectual, Spiritual data that is available in your surrounding environment. There in lies the answerer to a lot of people’s ponderings as to “why I feel this way?”, is that some where along the line your blank tape got filled with a lot of BS that you are not even aware of and will probably never have the details. UN less you originate from a highly dysfunctional family and for you that’s the norm… Me I have had a highly dysfunctional life. My family is highly dysfunctional by anybody’s standards. And I am coming to realize that my own personal issues rise from all of the baggage from my less than pleasant childhood… I am at times a less than pleasant adult but, I don’t want to be. And there’s the key. What I want to be. Not what I have allowed the world to make me. There comes a time in one’s life that you make a decision about what you desire, what you will allow, and what you need, and what are you going to do. Sounds simple but it’s not. Because figuring all that out sometimes takes a lifetime. Meanwhile you are contending with all the other individuals in your ever changing environments as well. What a headache that can be, the artistry is finding and surrounding yourself with the Joy that life offers.

For me, finding the Joy starts within myself. Although there are some external things that I feel I need to help it along, over all I believe that if I live in a state of kindness I will find happiness. Weird sounding though it maybe this is what I am trying to achieve for myself. I find myself though in constant Flux, Ever changing and evolving, this is what growth is all about. To be constantly growing is living and living is learning, to be learning is to be evolving, the circle continues. In the process of this within the things I do I try to treat people as I would wish to be treated with kindness and some measure of understanding. Not always easy but definitely worth the effort. Anyway, I am continuing my journey, my adventure through life and I will drop in from time to time and let you know how it goes and what’s on my Mind, if you interested we can talk about it……Over a cup of coffee.